Even though this Summer has been the best thus far, I would like it to end already. I'm not too sure why, but usually around this time a persistent feeling of emptiness and restlessness takes over me. I usually get over it, but it just sucks having to deal with it. There are days I don't want to be bothered, but I'll go out thinking it'll do me some good and in result, I'll feel uncomfortable in my own skin and think to myself, "God, why did I even bother going out?" I don't want people to think that I don't enjoy their company because I do, I'm just...I don't know. It's hard for me to explain it. It could just be my depression. During the Fall, Winter, and Spring, I'm constantly busy so with that, my depression is forgotten about until the Summer comes along when I have some time to myself and am reminded of it. This isn't a cry for help or anything and I don't want others to feel bad nor do I expect them to understand. The only way to deal with my depression is on my own and it's been like that from the beginning. I briefly mentioned this to Kelly and I do feel better. Anyway, I know I'll be fine because I always manage to pick myself up. I do leave for San Francisco next Tuesday so I'm sure while I'm out there I'll be able to clear my mind and be back to my normal self once I come back home.

I need to have this on my body already...

Reoccurring dreams...

*To dream that you are in a public restroom with no stalls or that there are a lot of people around while you are trying to do your business, signifies your frustrations about getting enough privacy. You are always putting others ahead of your own needs. As a result, you are lacking a sense of personal space. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you are having difficulties letting go of old emotions. You are afraid that if you reveal these feelings, then others around you will judge and criticize you.

*To dream that you can not find the bathroom or that you have difficulties finding one, indicates that you have difficulties in releasing and expressing your emotions. You are holding back your true feelings about something.

Some things I'd rather keep to myself even if it kills me.

I want you...

"Well, I was thinking of covering "Want" at my wedding in a couple months, and when I was looking for other covers to get ideas I saw yours on Youtube and it was kind of perfect. I was wondering, would you mind if I covered your style of cover? As well, what fret do you have your Capo on and what are the chords? I am trying to copy by ear, and don't want to screw it up...."