The season tends to do this to me...

I just want someone to cuddle with.
There has to be someone that wants to be held and I've extended my arms.
C'MON.

Anyway, I finished the lyrics...

"Destination: Redemption"

Verse 1
In time, did I realize
That I was my own misguide
I followed my heart and took the risk
And I suffered the consequence

Verse 2
"Lighten up!"
I told myself
"For once, you can call the shots."

Chorus
I've never felt more at ease
But where will this lead me?

Verse 3
My mind is clear
I've hung up my fears
To me, what is more important
Is not what happened
It won't be that
But, for now on, will only be the present

Chorus
I've never felt more at ease
But where will this lead me?

Bridge
One that gives will simply be given
I've made myself a new direction
Destination: Redemption

And still it's my wish under all logistics to be loved and understood...

I don't know why, but I had this sudden urge to play basketball once I had gotten home from work Today. I went to my car and realized that my basketball was still at the practice space. I couldn't find my air pump, also. So, that was a no go. I remembered that there were random bikes in my garage and, of course, the tires were flat. I still wanted to do something, too. I think it was the coffee that made me so jittery. I came to the conclusion that jogging was the only choice. I jogged around town for about two hours listening to Jawbreaker's Dear You and Unfun on my Ipod. These two albums just kept me going and not wanting to stop. It felt great to clear my mind and know I didn't give up on these goddamn hills. Fuck, these hills.

Anyway, I'm now here eating crackers with Milo and find it so amusing that he's been eating them piece by piece. Milo's my niece's boyfriend's dog that has been living with us due to her boyfriend's current residency not allowing dogs. He's an Akita/German Shepard mix and he's beautiful.



After the first day, I was hooked on this dog. My sister and nieces are barely home so I try to keep him company whenever I can because he's still a pup and needs the attention, ya know?

I've realized that I finally have friends that I can rely on and will go out of their way just as I would do the same. I've gone out of my way for so many others and in return, received nothing. You think by doing this, it'd show them how easy it could be just to give back. It's only shown me how selfish one can be and think it's okay to take advantage of another. It's always been so hard for me to trust people and it still is. I'm working on it and the friends I have now are truly helping.

Thanks to my friends, family, and music, I'm becoming the person I want to be.

Post worthy...

"I'll give ya the quick run down. basically i started the label to give my band some clout. but as everyone knows, you can't get "clout" being the only band on a label. so, i got friends bands to join up and instead of just putting out a cd on their own, they slapped the label name on it and went about biz as if they were signed. I have the website (which needs an update) so when people come to see your "label" they see what looks like any other label. I get a lot of requests for promo and send stuff all over the place. all i ask for is a box of cd's to sell on the site to help cover shipping and web costs. the rest of what i do is simply to help people i know get the respect they deserve. I think it sucks that a band is not viewed as "legit" if they're not on a label. I mean shit, your not worthy of better shows because some fucking label didn't give you the stamp of approval?
hopefully being on scorpion gets you some interest from other labels. Honestly, as much as i bitch about the process, it is much easier to function with label backing.
You can take it as far as you want to go. as you saw with FES and ISO, i worked my ass off and did a lot of great stuff. if you press 1000 cd's, get a list of radio stations and send them to everyone. every show you go to, put 1 in the hand of the promoter and sound guy. you have a label name on your cd and suddenly your taken more seriously.
if your interested in something like this, let me know. I don't tell you how or what to do, all i try and do is help."

This is beyond fucking awesome!
Scorpion Records has had 25 Ta Life, In Search Of, One Win Choice, Colin of Arabia, The Blackout, and other bands on the label.
I'm so fucking excited to, soon, be a part of a label that I grew up supporting in the NJ Hardcore scene.
Also, it's time that my band gets the respect that we deserve.

But now that you've moved along I guess I'm next on line...

It's incredible how relieved one can feel after venting.
I feel great.

I wrote a new song and I absolutely love the song structure of it.
Intro/Verse/Intro/Verse/Chorus/Verse/Chorus/Bridge/Outro
I'm such a loser.

Slingshot Dakota Tomorrow!
Work and maybe Algernon on Saturday.
Kayaking on Sunday...FINALLY!

It seems like I only live for the weekends, but then again, so does everyone else.
Right?

Won't let the world weigh me down 'cause I'm coming alive!

Carlos and I formed a Melodic Hardcore(Kid Dynamite, Lifetime, Old Saves The Day, etc) band and I recorded three songs in less than 24 hours. First band practice on Sunday! Yeah, this shit is going to rule.
Just sayin'.

I'm seeing Lemuria later on Today!

I won't apologize for acting outta line...

I don't care if I'm an asshole for speaking my mind.
I'm tired of others taking me for granted.
I've been making changes for myself and it'll only continue.
Seriously, go fuck yourself if you plan on getting in my way.

This is torture. It's fucking horrible.

I barely knew the girl, but I wanted to show her the world.