Impatient

I wrote this, this morning. I guess I'll entitle it "Impatient" since clearly that's what I am.

For one who believes in compromise
Does not make time
In the future I only exist
Why think about the present?
Your desires have been on repeat
And I'm tired
Because it's been way more than weeks

I'm impatient
And you know this
I'm inconsistent
But all I need is someone to help me finish

What is considered appropriate
When I don't even know where I stand
It has been a month after month span
Goddamn, month after month span

I'm impatient
And you know this
I'm inconsistent
But all I need is someone to help me finish

I wrote a list of things to do
And I cannot rely on you

Is this really what the future holds?

I'm not one to focus on the future because I live in the present and feel it'll only get me to the future.

My mom's astrologist said a lot of positive things about my "future." It made me feel good about myself, but everything always seems too good to be true. He said I'd be successful with my music and I won't let anything get in my way. There will be people trying to get in between my music and I because they're jealous. My relationships are all the same, which means I'll get bored, but I'll have my music to fall back on.

It kind of scares me because for the most part, this all has already started to happen.

Next, please...

I always give into one of these after a while.

Lets start with this...

This one's entitled "Out of Reach."

Verse

In and out!
I can't be satisfied more than one time.
Left or right?
Which direction will take me by surprise?
I'm okay, believe me, but when will I be happy?

Chorus

I wake up, I wake up, every morning wanting something out of reach.
Oh, oh, I think this time my dreams have gotten the best of me.

Verse

I admit, I run and I hide.
I play shy.
I make no attempt on what could be mine.

Pre-chorus

Every single time.
Please, don't waste your time.

Chorus

I wake up, I wake up, every morning wanting something out of reach.
Oh, oh, I think this time my dreams have gotten the best of me.

Bridge

I'd rather be alone in this because there won't be much that I'll miss.

Chorus

I wake up, I wake up, every morning wanting something out of reach.
Oh, oh, I think this time my dreams have gotten the best of me.

I feel like this needs more explanation. It's obvious, though, that I lose interest. Whether it comes to a relationship or a hobby...I just lose interest after a while. It's always been a problem of mine or is it really a problem? I'm not really sure. It is only in my dreams where I'm content with what I have and never want to let it go. In realization after waking up, I'm not happy with what I have. I always want more and can never find that "more" in someone. I believe I have once, but the timing and place were completely off. Anyway, I'm never taken by surprise. I don't expect much out of anything and I never make an effort. Yes, it makes me look like an asshole. I'm aware of that.

In conclusion, I just want a girl who can be inspiring, open-minded, unpredictable, witty, and just enough of a bitch. It's rare, though, so it seems.